The Omega hurdle.

I'm an olympic athlete that cannot remember to drive to a race.

I'm the black belt that didn't get enough sleep to win a fight.

I'm a genius that cannot stay focused enough to write a coherent thesis.


Theres nothing I can't do academically. I excel conceptually and structurally whenever I remember to attend class. Which is fundamentally the most difficult thing to deal with. It's dreadful, and I'm constantly stumbling through because of what a uniquely retarded habit I have of skipping class. It's a big mis-step though, and what I find most troubling is the constant brain melting mush that passes for education here.

And I've found the root of it: So many people here do not choose their words carefully enough. They rely on apathy/contextual understanding to get their points across when their points are riddled with loosely installed words that don't adequately describe the real point. For example: I'm in a politial science course, and they're discussing the "Jihadism vs The McWorld" And I start refuting the terms. What do they really mean by that? Is the world so black and white that everyone either is the soulless corporate whore under the Mcdonalds whore or the Islamist Terrorist? Well no no, they assure me, but I should understand what they MEAN.

But that's not my job, its their job to define their terms and use adequate terminology to get to an actual discussion. All too often this happens in classes:

Professor: What do you guys think? Is democracy really a fundamental right?
Kid1: I think so, I think everyone should have a right to vote in their governments.
Kid2: But if you have no food in your stomach, what does a vote do for you?
Kid3: I don't really think its a fundamental right, those are to be free or live.
etc. etc. etc.
Professor: *chiming in on another kids blatantly biased, unfounded, retardedly useless opinion* well then blah blah fucking blah I use my phD to cut down an easy, off the cuff idea by someone who hasn't been trained to think logically on their feet.

Looking back, the problem was only compounded in Highschool, since there was never ANY moderator. The educational system is so much more of a "all ideas are good ideas" bullshit place and a Socratic method of "are you SURE you even know anything"?

And I love the Socratic method, but there's nothing more dickish than using it to exemplify everyone's ignorance. Why? Because we all fail the test eventually; we're all ignorant of so much, but at least you can see where and how far some people have thought about their opinions. It cuts down those that have little more than penny for a pound opinions.

Anyway. If anyone ever reads this and takes heed. Don't fret, it's not really people's lack of intelligence, its just a lack of upper guidance. Classes are random assortments of people, and without a certain amount of steering it becomes a mess of gibberish and useless tangential comments during discussion. That's the professor/teacher's fault for maybe not really understanding it themselves.

And that's why I skip class so much. But fuck, it hurts me either way. My soul if I go, my degree if I don't go. Bloody Hell.

Alpha Alpha Alpha

The title reminds me of a fraternity or sorority, so that's what I'm going to write about. I don't like the idea of fraternities and sororities. I mean, I understand the perks of being in one, but look how retarded you look. You're perpetuating the idea that clicks are okay in college. College is about meeting several different types of people and interacting with different minded people. It is a place to improve your view by sharing your thoughts with different people. It is NOT a place to hide within a circle of like minded fools that will think the same as you. I have nothing against those who start or join a frat or sorority for networking benefits, but those who do it for parties and fun.

But speaking of networking, it shouldn't have to come down to that. We shouldn't have to join frats or sororities for their networking advantages. I mean, we should be able to meet and greet individuals on our own. There are some people that have no social skills, and should suffer because of that.

I have two 4 midterms next week, so I'm making this short and taking a short hiatus. After them, I'll tell you about the paper-on-man rape.