The Omega hurdle.

I'm an olympic athlete that cannot remember to drive to a race.

I'm the black belt that didn't get enough sleep to win a fight.

I'm a genius that cannot stay focused enough to write a coherent thesis.


Theres nothing I can't do academically. I excel conceptually and structurally whenever I remember to attend class. Which is fundamentally the most difficult thing to deal with. It's dreadful, and I'm constantly stumbling through because of what a uniquely retarded habit I have of skipping class. It's a big mis-step though, and what I find most troubling is the constant brain melting mush that passes for education here.

And I've found the root of it: So many people here do not choose their words carefully enough. They rely on apathy/contextual understanding to get their points across when their points are riddled with loosely installed words that don't adequately describe the real point. For example: I'm in a politial science course, and they're discussing the "Jihadism vs The McWorld" And I start refuting the terms. What do they really mean by that? Is the world so black and white that everyone either is the soulless corporate whore under the Mcdonalds whore or the Islamist Terrorist? Well no no, they assure me, but I should understand what they MEAN.

But that's not my job, its their job to define their terms and use adequate terminology to get to an actual discussion. All too often this happens in classes:

Professor: What do you guys think? Is democracy really a fundamental right?
Kid1: I think so, I think everyone should have a right to vote in their governments.
Kid2: But if you have no food in your stomach, what does a vote do for you?
Kid3: I don't really think its a fundamental right, those are to be free or live.
etc. etc. etc.
Professor: *chiming in on another kids blatantly biased, unfounded, retardedly useless opinion* well then blah blah fucking blah I use my phD to cut down an easy, off the cuff idea by someone who hasn't been trained to think logically on their feet.

Looking back, the problem was only compounded in Highschool, since there was never ANY moderator. The educational system is so much more of a "all ideas are good ideas" bullshit place and a Socratic method of "are you SURE you even know anything"?

And I love the Socratic method, but there's nothing more dickish than using it to exemplify everyone's ignorance. Why? Because we all fail the test eventually; we're all ignorant of so much, but at least you can see where and how far some people have thought about their opinions. It cuts down those that have little more than penny for a pound opinions.

Anyway. If anyone ever reads this and takes heed. Don't fret, it's not really people's lack of intelligence, its just a lack of upper guidance. Classes are random assortments of people, and without a certain amount of steering it becomes a mess of gibberish and useless tangential comments during discussion. That's the professor/teacher's fault for maybe not really understanding it themselves.

And that's why I skip class so much. But fuck, it hurts me either way. My soul if I go, my degree if I don't go. Bloody Hell.

Alpha Alpha Alpha

The title reminds me of a fraternity or sorority, so that's what I'm going to write about. I don't like the idea of fraternities and sororities. I mean, I understand the perks of being in one, but look how retarded you look. You're perpetuating the idea that clicks are okay in college. College is about meeting several different types of people and interacting with different minded people. It is a place to improve your view by sharing your thoughts with different people. It is NOT a place to hide within a circle of like minded fools that will think the same as you. I have nothing against those who start or join a frat or sorority for networking benefits, but those who do it for parties and fun.

But speaking of networking, it shouldn't have to come down to that. We shouldn't have to join frats or sororities for their networking advantages. I mean, we should be able to meet and greet individuals on our own. There are some people that have no social skills, and should suffer because of that.

I have two 4 midterms next week, so I'm making this short and taking a short hiatus. After them, I'll tell you about the paper-on-man rape.

Ares Rising: Omega Returns

So here we are. Omega gets his vacation finally. Well, sort of vacation. I'm constantly surprised when I speak with people about the faith they have in society. People in my opinion are far too limited to trusting their own personal experience. "Because I've never witnessed crime happening nor have I ever had my personal life endangered, the law must therefore be working, and criminal behavior is for the most part thwarted."

It's total bullshit. You should rest assured, if there appears to be no criminal behavior in your area of experience, its more likely true that the criminals among you are good enough that they've never been caught.

In other news, I am incredibly pleased to be spending time with a wonderful girl. She's like-minded in certain ideas, but came to those conclusions using a completely different logic and its incredibly refreshing. I'm smitten. And thus a grand experiment is about to unfold. Until recently, I had been tweaking my body image to be thinner than my natural average. However, now that I am in "impress female" mode, we'll see what I can do.

Current Height: 5'11 Weight: 140lbs. (this is coming down from my last summer high of 162lbs, when I had been swimming and running regularly.)

My goal is to get up to 150 about, and I have until April 2nd to do it. Fighting fit as they say, and I'll tell you if this modification pleases the women-folk. Besides that, if I hit my target weight, I'll post my exercise regimen, because 10 lbs in 7 days will be an impressive feat for someone of my body shape.

Omega Out. And in. and out. and in again, and out again.

"If the thought of something makes you giggle for longer than 15 seconds, you are to assume that you are not allowed to do it." -Something my mother told me. (It was in Church, guess what I decided to believe.)

Alpha in late; bouncing back

Omega is making me write shit down for this post. I’m in class and I would like to pay attention, but noooo.

(8:58:18 AM) Omega: write in that FUCKING blog
(8:58:30 AM) Alpha: Hey
(8:58:32 AM) Alpha: Fuck you
(8:58:34 AM) Alpha: How about that?
(8:58:36 AM) Alpha: You like that?
(8:58:40 AM) Alpha: Here, have another
(8:58:41 AM) Omega: no fuck you
(8:58:41 AM) Alpha: Fuck you
(8:58:49 AM) Omega: lazy fuck
(8:59:11 AM) Omega: Im gonna post as you, and tell the people the truth about alpha, "I'm a lazy fucking cocksucker"
(8:59:33 AM) Omega: hows that gonna feel?
(8:59:45 AM) Alpha: Is that really what our blog is going to become?

So here I am. I’m going to write about what I think of Omega’s last post. Fuck retarded women. My ex-girlfriend fucked me up badly. She turned me from an idealist, helpless romantic to a realistic douche bag. Finally, when she more or less forced me to get rid of her, I attempted to be single for a while. I worked on my school work. I worked on my extracurricular activities. I enjoyed life. But as I became lonely, I attempted to court women. Here came a big problem. I bend over backwards for women. When I like a woman, I will do what I can for them. But this is the problem. Women are idiots. They don’t realize it. They find a nice guy that is better than the others, but they will never date them. This pushes us away. I hate being taken advantage of, and women seem to love to do it.

I was nice to this one girl whom I liked for a while, but she ended up not being able to drop the douche bag she was with. Here’s the kicker: she knows I’m better than he is. She knows this. She even said she would drop him, but never did it. But she keeps me around to do her favors. Fucked up? I think so.

Another example is this one girl who no longer talks to me. I was cordial with her. I liked her. I tried to date her, but she never put down those insecurities that prevented it. I talked with her about these insecurities, and she now no longer talks to me. Do I know exactly why she stopped talking to me? Nope. She just started to ignore me. She’s supposed to be more mature than me. What the Hell is this shit?

So I had an experiment going a bit ago. I was a complete asshole to her. She still called back for more. The problem is, I never made a move. She’s a whore anyway, so I’m glad I never did. But it turns out, if I’m an asshole, I tend to get a female’s attention more so than if I’m a good guy.

Ask any woman what type of guy they are looking for. They will tell you that they want a nice guy. I’ve done this before. Then I looked them in the eyes and say “I’m a nice guy, would you like to watch a movie with me?”. Their answer: You’re a great guy, Alpha, but you’re too much of a friend.

Luckily, I played all of my cards right in my final attempt of getting a girlfriend. She’s an awesome girlfriend, so please don’t think I’m bitter. I’m writing this to let all of you female readers to know:

Fuck that “we’re just friends” bullshit, go for the gold

Ignore those douche bags. If you’re tired of being treated like shit, then go for the nice guys

Do you see that nerd? Go for him. You’d be surprised at how happy you may be.

Don’t encourage those douchebags. Just…just don’t do it.

Oh, and one last thing: Fuck that ladder theory.

Omega - Tip of the Sword

It's 1:11am right now, I have a habit of checking the clock and seeing odd times. I know that totally anecdotal evidence, but whatever.  I just had a cathardic experience telling off a female that has been a thorn in my side recently. Sure, I made her into this archtypal girl that pisses me off.

Brand New: I believe you but my Tommy Gun Don't

Summerizes most of what I'm thinking right now. If you're a girl reading this: 

I am the Omega. I'm not going to lie to you and promise you the security society makes you think you want. I respect women enough that they aren't my kids and I won't lie for your comfort unless you make me.  Do whatever you want with me so long as you're honest with yourself.  I'm intelligent, funny, clever, caring, affectionate, passionate, athletic, creative, useful, and in love with life.  I'm also insecure in a very peculiar way, analytical, intimidating, forgetful, speak frankly, and will often find solutions instead of be empathetic unless you tell me.

Girls are ridiculous. They'll fuck over the nice guy who's there for them, and cheat on them.  They'll enjoy their time with a guy instead of their boyfriends, but deny HIM because "they already have a boyfriend".  So get myself a single girl? Or deny myself of a girl I like because she has a boyfriend? 

Fuck that. Omega Out. I'll post more later.

"Damned if you do, damned if you don't" - Greek Dilemma

Family values

(4:52:39 PM) Alpha: Hey hey
(4:53:33 PM) Alpha: So
(4:53:59 PM) Alpha: I was told to go pick up my little brother in Saratoga from my mom and sister
(4:54:01 PM) Alpha: So I did
(4:54:26 PM) Alpha: What they didn't tell me was that I was supposed to go to Redwood City to go pick up my mother's van from the mechanic's
(4:54:55 PM) Alpha: So I get home and my little brother asked what we were doing there
(4:55:09 PM) Alpha: Then he told me that we were supposed to go pick up the van
(4:55:24 PM) Alpha: Long story short, I get to hang out however long I want
(4:55:29 PM) Alpha: Because my family sucks

That is a short snippet of a conversation between Omega and me. Well, this post will be on family values.

First, I'd like to talk about this conversation. Although it may seem from this snippet that I hate my family, it is quite the opposite. I love my family. Of course they drive me crazy, but everybody's family drives them crazy. I have driven 2-3 hours just because my mother had a doctor's appointment. I skipped class and work because of it. If my sister needed a ride, I would go out of my way to either provide it myself, or call in a favor from a friend. Family comes first. I can't understand how people can push their family away instantly. Sure, I want to be free from my family, but I can't bring myself to do that. Damn this cultural connection.

Second, I was having a conversation with my girlfriend last night about family. We both come from divorced families. Whereas she has a slightly different story from mine, we have similarities nonetheless. This is at least some ground where we stand together. More to the point, she was arguing with her parents last night. Obviously the best solution to this is to lie to them and make them think they won. Well, that seems to counteract what my story was in the first paragraph. Sometimes, people need to be lied to. I lie to my mother all of the time. Sometimes for my protection, sometimes for hers. If I told my mother I smoked, she'd die. Well, she'd actually die. She's pretty much already dead as it is.

Third, I would like to point out that I am a sucker to culture. I can't explain it, but I feel obligated to follow my culture. Omega and I have had arguments over this on several occasions. I think the best way to understand it is if you read about why Belgium stood up to Germany at the start of World War I.

I'm tired and I'm trying to learn. With that, I'm going to leave you with a quote. Peace.

“There is no doubt that it is around the family and the home that all the greatest virtues, the most dominating virtues of human society, are created, strengthened and maintained.” - Winston Churchill

(On a side note about the fall of society. I tried to Google "Quotes on Family" and Family Guy Quotes kept popping up. This is why I hate people.)

Omega March 5th

That last conversation took place in my Economics Course, it's not actually an economics course though, because its under the auspice of the International Relations Department. So its basically Political kids who use fancy economic words to try and prove why their ideology is justified.   People forget the first rule of economics, that resources are infinitismally scarce. 

There will be poverty and hunger and war because of the former two. Socialism and its cousins have never, and will never give a better life to everyone. There just isn't enough stuff. And if we gave everyone the exact same amount of resources somehow magically, we'd STILL end up forfeiting parts of their resources away to someone who talked fast, promised big, or just muscled you out of your posessions because thats just how it happens. 

I overheard a very interesting synopsis to a book: It was an alternate historical recount of what would happen if it was the Mayan/Incan Empire who discovered Western Europe about 100 years earlier than columbus.  It had this interesting, reverse conquest plot that they sort of talked about, but I think its total crap. The Ican explorers in Europe would have died outright. The same diseases were still there, and the plague would have made them suffer to death on foriegn soil. 

Animal husbandry wasn't a quirk, it was an immonological advantage. So were dogs and Horses for the conquest of the New World.  What I never understood was why the Chinese never did it first. I guess war always supercedes exploration, which is kind of a mirror to current times.  Instead of pushing forward with the best that Human ability has to offer such as space exploration and the sciences, we worry about feeding the useless and waging war with the stupid. Let's try something new and just hope that we can thrust a branch of people away from the muck and the mire.

I want a permanent space colony. REALLY bad. If I spend the rest of my life lobbying for it to happen, it would be a fulfilled life.   But I need money first.

"Non est ad astra mollis e terris via." 'Hercules Furens.' (Translated: "There is no easy way to the stars from earth")