Alpha 2 - The Adventure Continues

I thrive for intelligent conversation.

I had a nice conversation with my girlfriend last night. I told her I wanted to get to know who she was. Well, it turns out she doesn't even know. This lead to her crying. We sat and conversed about what makes a person a person. I gave her my breakdown of who she is. Apparently, I was almost completely correct. This conversation turned to what really constitutes a person.

There is a difference between what makes a good person, what makes a good friend, and what makes a good boyfriend. I am a good friend and a great boyfriend. Does this make me a good person? Not at all. I'm a horrible person. I cheat. I lie. I steal. I manipulate. And for what? Mostly self gain. I mean, sometimes I do it to be a better friend. I screw over strangers or people I'm not close to so I can make a better life for those I care about.

But let's focus on manipulation. I manipulate people not just for gain, but for shits and giggles. I kid you not; I do it for fun. I like seeing how far I can go before they catch on to my game. Sometimes they never do. But how bad of a person am I? I will help a stranger. I will take charge in an emergency and try to save people's lives. I will put myself on the line for a good cause. But at the same time, I like to see what I have to gain from it. If there's one thing I hate, it's wasting my time and effort.

What people need to do is be able to differentiate between what makes a good person and a good friend. If you want, there's always the third factor of being a good significant other. But for the sake of an easy argument, I will leave that factor out. When you read this, ask yourself: Have I been judging people based on one factor? Or have I been able to divide situations and judge a person based on who they are in those situations?

Just remember, whenever somebody says that they don't judge, they're a liar. Everybody judges one way or another. It's one thing to lie to me, but it's another thing to lie to yourself.

I understand this post was half-assed, but Neurobiology calls.

"Men can starve from a lack of self-realization as much as they can from a lack of bread." - Richard Wright